I spend most of my time alone. Outside of work, I have no hobbies that can keep my interest for a long time. Life is pretty boring and I just don't see the point in it. No, I'm not going to do anything stupid. I just feel like I'm missing out on the party and when I try to bring others into my life, they only wind up making me recede more.
When I was little, I would always picture that guys I like, and my friends, would be watching me through cameras that were put up in my house. I always tried to do things that sensed cool, I feel stupid now though, lol
When I was in kindergarten I had a substitute for the day.and I was just doing my work and then the boy I had a crush on walked past and asked me to play with him. Guess what I did? I farted in his face, and he looked at me and started crying. He said "I just wanted you to play with me." And my whole face turned red. Then the stupid teacher told me to stop farting. And the class started laughing.
I have never once fallen for a guy because of his looks. Not once! Why is everyone so hung up on how hot someone is? I don't care about what I look like, but if a guy doesn't like me because I don't think I should have to impress them, then that is stupid.
I don't know how to interact in public. I know how to act just not how to get noticed like other people. Anytime I try I say or/and do something stupid. So I just go back to standing in the corner and being quiet. Being a loner, which is something I don't want to be as a freshman in high school.