I'm madly in love with the man I've spent over 3 years with but he doesn't love me..he dumped me after asking me to marry him from prison the last 9 months..10 days out..I'm just a friend..hes fucking a friend of mine..or at least I thought she was. I get high, smoke meth and shoot, a lot. I'm slowly killing myself. I don't want to live anymore. I only weigh 110lbs now. He has HIV, now I might