Unmoderated secrets
My secret is, I don't know how much longer I can hold out for. I'm tired of the tears falling I'm tired of constantly being let down by life. Nothing seems worth trying anymore, and I feel like I'll never find true actual love. I'm so tired of meeting these beautiful woman and then believe every single lie they tell me because they're beautiful. I'm tired of everything and existing..
My boyfriend doesn’t even like me and I can’t bring myself to leave him. And it surprises me when I catch him trying to cheat even though he always has cheated and even got herpes from cheating and didn’t tell me about it for 6 years I had to find his prescription for valtex. And I still had sex with him after that. And I am sad that we are done even though he steals from me too.
My boyfriend doesn’t even like me and I can’t bring myself to leave him. And it surprises me when I catch him trying to cheat even though he always has cheated and even got herpes from cheating and didn’t tell me about it for 6 years I had to find his prescription for valtex. And I still had sex with him after that. And I am sad that we are done even though he steals from me too.
idk how to say this but I'm not over my ex who cheated on me with an underage girl eventhough it's been 2 years and I'm with someone else now. I feel this hollow aching emptiness in my chest and idk what to do about it, it constantly feels like I can't breathe. I miss him and want to talk to him again, I need closure or something but idk if it's a good idea...
I got locked in a room in 2003 when I was 7 with Emily Kinney who starred in The Walking Dead and I wasn't allowed out until I learnt how to deal with trauma. She taught me how to compose lyrics and would sing to me whenever I would start to cry when I was telling her about my trauma and that taught me to express myself in a way that didn't cause more trauma for others.